Gumawa ka ng mabuti at babalik

Gumawa ng mabuti, bumalik ng 4x! Nakakaiyak na Lord. Bakit ga ho ang bait nyo saakin. 😭😭😭
Nung nasa Airport ako ng Tenerife South pabalik ng Madrid, may nanlimos saakin. Sabi nya nawalan daw sya ng pera, 15€ daw kailangan nya 5 lang nasakanya. binigyan ko ng 10€. Pero hinahabol ko sya ng tingin, alam ko naman na modus lang yon. Pero sa loob loob ko, dibale na. Kailangan nya kaya yun ginagawa. Nakalimutan ko na rin yon. 
Kanina, may customer na matanda. Haha. Di naman ako naimik at busy ako sa pagba-budget ng kasal namin. Kung gusto ko daw na maging girlfriend nya ako. Sabi ko “Hala. Ayaw ko. May asawa na ako. Ikakasal na kami.” Pinakita ko singsing ko tapos yung notebook ko ng budget.  Sabi nya “lagi na lang akong late. Sabihin mo saakin kapag divorced ka na.” HAHAHA. As if naman.  Tapos inabutan ako ng 50€!!! Ayaw ko tanggapin. Sabi ko di naman kailangan gawin yon. Nakapag tip na sya ng 4. Sapat sa yon sakin. Mag enjoy daw ako kasama ng boyfriend ko. 

Akala nya nandito ang bf ko. Hehe. 
Tapos nalaman ko ang story nya, lagi pala yun sa bar kaibigan ng boss ko. Mayaman daw talaga may ari ng gasoline station na madaming branches. Galante daw. Mdami dn daw un babae. Namatay daw pala ang una nyang asawa. Naisip ko agad, depressed. Ikaw ba naman mamatayan ng asawa na mahal na mahal mo. Kaya sya galante, dahil sabi nya daw aanhin daw nya ang pera hindi naman daw madadala sa hukay. 
Hanggang ngayon speechless pa rin ako. Di ko alam ang mafefeel. Iniisip ko na lang na regalo nya saamin ng boyfriend ko ang binigay nya dahil nga sinabi nya mag enjoy kami sa celebration ng New Year. At the same time,di ako sanay makahawak ng perang di ko pinaghirapan. Instant money eh. Di naman galing sa parents ko. Iba ang feeling. 
Now I am praying for that old man, na sana mahanap nya na ang makakapagpasaya sakanya. Lord ikaw na ang bahala sa taong yun.

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There’s more to life.

​”You go to places and you see the world, you make memories that you can bring until you grow old.” – #ldrandlifeblog
I have to repost this photo. I always long to see mornings like this. This makes me feel like I want to live more. This feels life. 

Kung hindi dahil sa boyfriend ko, hindi na ako mangangarap uli.

I realized that andami pang magaganda sa buhay than what we have right now. Ako nga eh, never in my life na naisip ko na makakakita ako ng ganito kagandang view. Never in my life na inakala kong posible palang mangyare lahat ng magagandang ito sa buhay ko.

Kagaya sa love life, friends. 

Nasayo lang yun if you want to see it also. If you are willing to grow or just stay there not moving on. 

Instead of doing bad things to feed your ego, why not do good things to improve yourself? I’ve seen people that are injured, badly hurt, emotionally broken. I’ve been there too. Somewhere in my life  I belong to that group of people. 

I saw them and saw what they are doing, i saw my self and I start comparing and I told my self,

“No, I do not want to be like that. I am hurt but I do not like to be bad nor kawawa.” 

Pag nasasaktan ako, I want to improve, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Kaya instead na manakit din ako ng iba? Hindi na lang. Hindi naman sila masasaktan eh. Bakit ko naman ilalagay ang sarili ko sa tabi ng bangin, tas pag nagtatalon ako don eh ako din naman ang may 100% chance na mahulog at mashigok. Hehe. 
I am not judging them people. They have their own life style, they have their own defense mechanism kung paano sila makakawala sa “sakit.” And I have my own way too. 

Hindi ko sinasabi na wag nilang indahin ang sakit na nararamdaman nila. It hurts a lot seeing the one you love walking away from you. Been there. I will go crazy if that happens to me. But one thing is for sure of that happens, I will cry today but I will be successful tomorrow. 
P.S.

When I write, I am talking to myself.

FALL 🍁

​”FALL”
I can still remember how it all started;

I was then broken and my pieces are scattered;

I was then free but feels like I am bottled;

And in just one moment my heart just rattled.
Your adventures makes me want to know you more;

Since our minds were both open like an open door;

Our talks get deeper as we walk the shore;

Then We felt like addicted to each other’s humor.
One day you said you love me seriously;

I cannot believe that I felt the same in all honesty;

But I just have to be very careful firstly;

Because I do not want to hurt you badly.
So I fixed my self and relaxed a bit;

Realized everything before I commit;

Been through a lot until I met my limit;

Cannot wait for more, I want to see you in the summit.
I prayed for you and you prayed for me;

Now we have each other unexpectedly;

Remember it’s Fall when we crossed that valley;

And we go together with this God’s given glory.

Autumn + s7 edge Pro Camera settings + VSCO