2years together😍

October 24,2015 – Forever.My tropa and I; We’re married.
Happy happy 2 YEARS together Bii. Hindi ko malilimutan yung araw na yun na nag I love you ka sakin at nag I love you too ako sayo. 😍❤️

Na noon palang alam na nating tayo na talaga sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan na nagsimula lang naman sa simpleng pagkakaibigan. 😁 Kakaiba talaga, pustahan tayo matatawa ka rin kapag maiisip mo ang mga usapan natin dating puro kalokohan. Haha! Nagkainlove-an ng hindi naglandian at nagbolahan. Puro casual na “Uy balita” at heart to heart na usapan lang. San ka pa. 🙂 
Ni minsan hindi mo ako pinayuhan ng makakasama saakin, at ang gusto mo palagi ay ang aking kasiyahan. ❤️

Mula noon minahal ko ang sarili ko. Nakita ko ang halaga ko na pinapakita mo hanggang ngayon. Pinakita mo rin sakin kung ano ang deserve ko kahit hindi ako perpektong tao.

Tinanggap mo ako, tinanggap kita, at iniharap mo ako sa simbahan ng bukal saiyong kalooban. Yun ang napakasarap sa pakiramdam na pinagmamalaki ko. Na hindi natin pinilit ang ating sarili sa isa’t isa. Na pinili natin kahit mahirap, basta tayong dalawa ang magkasama. Na may sarili tayong paninindigan. Na kaya nating harapin ang kahit ano pa man. Subok na subok na. 
Basta na lang daw naging tayo? Hindi nila alam na araw araw nating pinaghihirapan at pinahahalagahan ang isa’t isa kahit tayo ay kasal na. 🙂 
Sobrang saya ko, wala akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng iba. Ikaw ang blessing ng Panginoon saakin Bii. Salamat sa 2 taon at sa mga dadating pa, at sa habambuhay na pangako nating magsasama.  

I love you! Mahal na mahal na mahal kita! Ikaw ang true love, soulmate at destiny ko. 
Salamat sayo. Salamat po Papa Jesus. 
Kakayanin natin lagi bii. Matapang tayo. ❤️😍😁

Ikasa mo! 👊🏻

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Happiness: Hard to earn

We laugh and smile and we’re not happy. I guess that laughing and smiling are just really a response to a certain action. I say so because it is easy to smile even you’re lonely but it will never be the same if it really means to me. 

Have you ever been so sad and you cannot put in details why? Have you been thinking about a lot of things and yet it led you to a neutral emotion (some kind of numbness) and then you find yourself in the corner of your room thinking and thinking again about a lot of stuffs, asking what’s wrong, lacking and what’s really going on? Or even asking for solutions about a problem you don’t even know where from? What do you call that state of mentality? 

I do not usually go out with friends, 3/4 of my life is basically working and “me” time. Every day there are few poeple in my inbox, a little chit chat. There are people available to talk but it is me who doesn’t feel like talking to them. What’s going on with my self.

I must admit I am missing someone. Being in a long distance relationship is hard, my boyfriend is a seaman and I hope you can imagine how hard it is to wait for the time, to adjust to time, to manage the time, skip sleeping because time is precious and you are not going to talk to him or see him everyday. 

Happiness is sacrifice. I can go out with friends but my friends are also busy working, and during my weekend days off, I want to relax in my room from Monday-Friday grind and sleeping 6 hours or less every night. I do not have so much time for myself and sometimes when homesickness strikes, it strikes hard. PLUS this effin hormones and PMS. Oh how I wish I could be with the person I love. You know, with just one hug all tiredness can be erased. And if you ask about my family, I am living with my mom and my father and 2 more sisters are in my own country. My Mom, I think feels the same way I do. But we must fight for this emotions and keep going on. Smile even if it is not that happy, fight on and live on because it is all part of sacrifice. 

Happiness is hard to earn. I sometimes do not know what happiness means. Contentment maybe? I am content with my life but I want to laugh the real laugh, smile the real smile, and go crazy over things and have fun. 

In short, I need a vacation. Miles awat from my work, recollect my broken pieces and get back my mindset. I need a time for me, for my boyfriend and I know with that, I’m going to be really HAPPY. 

Why do we hurt the ones we love?

To the person we love the most, to the person who made our life complete, to the person who made our shattered pieces in to brand new, we owe them big. We owe them so much. 

He is the reason of my everyday smile and my happiness in general. He is the reason why I choose to dream again and choose to love the love I never given to anyone else. He is the moon in my dark lonely night at the same time, the star that shines all day so bright. 

He is the one that made me live. The reason why I want to wake up even in my laziest morning. He is the time that I always look on to, the reason for everything I wish to do. 

But sometimes I can hurt him whenever I am sad. He is not OK seeing my eyes hurts so bad. When my tears started to fall he ran out of calmness; and panic starts to cover his face that’s before was only gladness. 

I wish I can be happy all the time. But being a girl is not as easy as cutting a lime. I hate that sometimes I need to burst but I need to say somehow my unspoken words.