God is Reminding you, Your Life is Beautiful

Normal lang naman na makaramdam tayo ng lungkot and loneliness lalo kapag literal kang mag-isa. May natutunan lang akong technique para makaiwas sa pagiisip ng hindi masaya ang buhay ko. Yup. And actually ngayon eh patuloy ko pa ring pina-practice dahil mahirap talaga syang i-apply sa daily life. But it is helping me a lot. 
 Totoo naman napakadaming stress at andami ng nangyari sa buhay natin na hindi magaganda. Kakainis lang kapag maaalala mo at madami kang bagay na pagsisisihan. Like duh, kung maiibalik lang natin ang panahon di ba?

So eto na nga sa natutunan ko, well all these opinions only comes from me, personal experiences at wala kong ibang pinatutungkulang iba kundi sarili ko (in case may makabasa na iba na baka akala eh sila ang pinaghuhugutan ko). You can try and reflect too if you want, but then, I’m just sharing. 😘
1. Napapaisip lang ako ng malulungkot na bagay kapag Hindi ako Busy. 
-totoo. Kahit na sabihing nasa trabaho naman ako, huhu. Kasi kapag nasanay ka na na everyday yun na lang ang routine mo parang naghahanap ka ng something new. Kaya ang ginagawa ko minsan, sa vacant hours ko nagpupunta ako ng mall, window shopping or naghahanap ako ng maliit na kapehan at nagkakape ako. Maiba man lang ang environment. Tapos naghahanap ako ng pagkaka-abalahan talaga whether it is selling something or what. Basta maging busy lang ako. Wag lang akong mapapaisip talaga ng masasamang bagay that doesn’t really help at all. Nakakatanda lang, nakakasakit lang ng ulo eh ang init init ng panahon.  
2. Active masyado ang utak ko at hindi pupwede ng walang iniisip. 
–totoo rin. Haha! Sa sobrang active ng utak eh lahat na lang gustong isipin. Sa gabi na lalo, kaya ako eh nagpapaka busy sa online games kapag hindi makatulog. Kahit tinatamad ako sige lang wag lang ako ma-stress at makaalala ng mga nakaraang ayaw ko naman na rin talagang alalahanin. In short, I am helping my self to move on. Di ko inaasa masyado sa iba, hihingi na lang ako ng tulong kapag hindi ko na talaga kaya.  

3. Last but not the least, kulang sa pag-simba. 
–Sad truth. Sa sobrang pagkabusy ko sa ibang bagay, at pagiisip, minsan iniiwasan ko talaga yung pagpunta sa simbahan. Lalo pag matinding stress ang dumadating as in when it rains it pours ganon, though I promise na nagdadasal naman ako kahit saan ako abutin ng doubts. Kahit habang nagkukudkod ng inidoro. 🤣 Pero hindi lang talaga ako pumapasok sa simbahan kahit may time ako. ☹️ Siguro dahil alam kong iiyak lang ako ng iiyak don at guilty ako sa mga pagkukulang ko sa Kanya. Nakakatuwa lang rin ang boyfriend ko na alam nya na naniniwala ako sa milagro, sa Dios, at sa kung ano ang kayang gawin ng relihiyon saamin, na sa tuwing alam nya na iba na ang aura ko, sya pa mismo ang magpapaalala sakin na sumimba ako. And I find it sweet and ideal. Just perfect for me dahil lagi ko rin pinagdarasal na sana may magpaalala saakin ng mga bagay na nakakalimutan ko. Isang blessing lang. Hindi ko pa nasasabi sa boyfriend ko pero sobra akong thankful sakanya. Aminado naman ako saaking mga pagkakamali at pagkakasala kaya nga naiishare ko sa mga kaibigan ko ang insecurities ko sa buhay. Pero kahit ganun, dun pa rin ako syempre sa TAMA. So sisimba ako, and after kong sabihin kay God lahat, kahit ilang ulit ko pang sabihin eh I will feel good and tomorrow eh ang galing lang, parang hinipan ng hangin ang panahon. ❤️ 
I will enclose this with a photo i took using my Sony Alpha 5100. 🤣 Hindi po nila ako binayaran para mag endorse. Haha! 
God is telling you, you’re doing OK and you just have to trust Him. Everything including the bad ones is a part of a plan. Everything is for your own good kaya chillax ka lang. ❤️✌🏻👌🏻

Choose your battles

Sa araw araw madami tayong negativities na pwedeng ma-encounter.  Kung anu-ano talaga na makakapagpa-irita, makakapagpa-init ng ulo at puwedeng maging dahilan pa para makapag-salita tayo ng masama.  Kung papatulan naman natin ang lahat ng ‘yun, juicecolored, baka araw-araw tayong may kaaway.  Kaya maganda rin na piliin lang natin ang ating mga paguukulan ng panahon, pansin at energy. Hehe. 

CHOOSE YOUR BATTLES

yan ang title ko dito dahil feeling ko bagay talaga sakin yan ngayon. Haha! Kung bad vibes lang rin naman ang topic, naku marami ako nyan, pero hindi ko na lang pinagpapansin, at sa pagdedma ko araw-araw, aba himalang nababawasan. Yung negative energy na talaga ang kusang lumalayo, ang saya lang; effortless. 😀

Pero minsan naaalala ko pa rin, sa maghapon, naalala ko kung sinu-sinong dahilan ng pagsulat ko nito. Kala nyo mga importanteng tao eh ano kung mapagukulan ko ng pansin, pero oo, kasi mga kaibigan. Sabihin na nating, hindi naman ako galit, pero nasa blacklist ko sila, I am just waiting for their move to know what they really want. Para akong leon na nakaabang lang sa mga taong hindi ko alam kung kaibigan ko ba talaga o kalaban.  Ang sakit lang kasi nun na kapag may mga tao akong tinuturing na kaibigan eh biglang titirahin ako patalikod, feel mo naman ‘yun eh lalo na kung observant kang tao. Malalaman mo ‘yun kasi you respect and love yourself too, kaya alam mo if there’s something wrong sa paligid mo. Wala akong sinasabing kahit na ano sakanila, I cannot confront them, I am just waiting for them to move. Wala silang aasahan sakin kasi in the first place, sila naman ‘yung may problema while I am fine with my life, andami ko pa namang pinagkaka-abalahan din talaga lalo pa at pauwi na ako ng Pinas and there’s a lot of wedding preparations. I am focusing more on that kesa sa mga taong di ko alam ang gusto sa buhay. Hehe. Kahit na aaminin ko na naiisip ko pa rin sila minsan, dahil yun siguro sa ayaw ko ng may kaalitan, pero ayaw ko rin ng inaabuso ako o kami, naiisip ko kasi lagi na lahat naman tayo dapat irespeto, or bakit ako marunong naman akong rumespeto but some people are always out of their line. I do not know, ang mahalaga nagpapakatotoo ako. At ang mahalaga hindi lahat pinapatulan ko. Kasi if ever na basta basta na lang ako pumatol, baka ngayon eh worst na ang sitwasyon. Kaso nga, pinipili ko lang ang paglalaanan ko ng panahon. 

Be kind and be wise. You can do both naman. You can be kind at the same time hindi ka mabastos, and you can be wise enough to the point na hindi ka naman magmumukang tanga. Mahalaga alam mo, kahit wala kang gawin. Mahalaga you know and you feel that it is them who have a problem. At be alert kung sakaling umatake na talaga sila ng wala sa lugar, at the same time eh chill and relax. Haha ang hirap nyan ibalance lalo pag may times na nakakapikon na talaga.  


Basta be happy, tuloy lang ang buhay kahit andaming humihilang bad vibes sayo.  God is watching you naman kaya don’t worry too much.  ❤️ Kaya natin tong lampasan. Mas madami pa ang good vibes kesa sa bad, don ka mag-focus. 

Adjusted

I am a Filipina and I moved to Spain last September 21, 2014. I was then a 21 year old girl who knows nothing but taking risks and only focused on my goals- To have a Photography Studio. Earning in Philippines (for me) is not that easy, I tried working as a Car Sales Agent and I can say selling cars were never that easy as I am not working inside the showroom. There is a huge difference, I need to go to different places and giving brochures and leaflets and introduce the the product but anyway, that was quite challenging though; I can meet different extraordinary people who can afford buying cars. 

Moving on, my first months in Spain was tragic. I cannot believe myself in pure loneliness and homesick. I am just fighting that emotion and still pushing on achieving my goals and the main reason why I am here. While doing that, I forgot about myself. I forgot looking at the mirror and see a beautiful reflection. I was sooo blooming wayback in Philippines and I always look good but when I got here, I can’t believe how haggard I was. 😂 My mindset is: “I am not here to enjoy, I am here to work.” But having that mindset never gave me a chance to save a lot of money. 😂 Ironic. Hate the fact that the cost of living is expensive. And whenever I have money, I dunno why I end up helping people or relatives in Philippines who have less. I am now helping a neice in her studies paying her tuition fees and school needs and etc. 

After 2 years I started buying clothes shoes and personal stuffs. I feel good about myself whenever I am helping someone but then I forgot my own self. I cannot balance everything. One person helped me realize that it is not bad if I think about myself too with the fact that I am the one who is working. That I need to give myself a reward, and treat myself better. I get over my homesickness because of him. He served as my inspiration and you know what? I am going to marry him soon this year 2017. 

I owe him a lot. Before, All I know is taking risk and whenever I mess up in the middle I lose myself out of nowhere and later on don’t exactly know what to do. He is my Idol and I am going to be his No.1 Fan for life. 

I am still composing myself and everyday I love who I am because of Him. How can you leave a person who helped you in your most difficult situation. He maybe don’t do anything like staying beside me literally, we are in a Long Distance Relationship but he never leaves my side emotionally. That’s when I realized that Love does not only mean hugging and kissing, it also means feeding each other emotional needs and helping each other become the best version of own self. 

I am happy, I am now more than blessed than before that I am living in Madrid. I appreciate what I have though it is still hard to earn money, BUT I never had zero resources. God always provides. Amen. I just hope I always have a lot of love to give, an endless one. I thank God for everything. I adjusted. I have an inspiration. Glory to Him!