2years together😍

October 24,2015 – Forever.My tropa and I; We’re married.
Happy happy 2 YEARS together Bii. Hindi ko malilimutan yung araw na yun na nag I love you ka sakin at nag I love you too ako sayo. 😍❤️

Na noon palang alam na nating tayo na talaga sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan na nagsimula lang naman sa simpleng pagkakaibigan. 😁 Kakaiba talaga, pustahan tayo matatawa ka rin kapag maiisip mo ang mga usapan natin dating puro kalokohan. Haha! Nagkainlove-an ng hindi naglandian at nagbolahan. Puro casual na “Uy balita” at heart to heart na usapan lang. San ka pa. 🙂 
Ni minsan hindi mo ako pinayuhan ng makakasama saakin, at ang gusto mo palagi ay ang aking kasiyahan. ❤️

Mula noon minahal ko ang sarili ko. Nakita ko ang halaga ko na pinapakita mo hanggang ngayon. Pinakita mo rin sakin kung ano ang deserve ko kahit hindi ako perpektong tao.

Tinanggap mo ako, tinanggap kita, at iniharap mo ako sa simbahan ng bukal saiyong kalooban. Yun ang napakasarap sa pakiramdam na pinagmamalaki ko. Na hindi natin pinilit ang ating sarili sa isa’t isa. Na pinili natin kahit mahirap, basta tayong dalawa ang magkasama. Na may sarili tayong paninindigan. Na kaya nating harapin ang kahit ano pa man. Subok na subok na. 
Basta na lang daw naging tayo? Hindi nila alam na araw araw nating pinaghihirapan at pinahahalagahan ang isa’t isa kahit tayo ay kasal na. 🙂 
Sobrang saya ko, wala akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng iba. Ikaw ang blessing ng Panginoon saakin Bii. Salamat sa 2 taon at sa mga dadating pa, at sa habambuhay na pangako nating magsasama.  

I love you! Mahal na mahal na mahal kita! Ikaw ang true love, soulmate at destiny ko. 
Salamat sayo. Salamat po Papa Jesus. 
Kakayanin natin lagi bii. Matapang tayo. ❤️😍😁

Ikasa mo! 👊🏻

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Habang tumatagal para bang humihirap… 

Nung una, pinangako ko sa sarili kong kakayanin ko. Lahat haharapin ko at di ako uurong. Kaya araw araw ginagawa ko yun, hindi ko rin akalain pero nalalampasan natin. 

October 24, 2015 ka unang nagsabi ng I love you sakin. Dalawang taon na pala bukas ano. Ang bilis bilis, noon mag syota palang tayo ngayon iisa na ang apelyido natin. 

Nung una tayong magkasama nung April 2016, masakit sakin. Nung nagkasama tayong muli nung May-July 2017, halos ikamatay ko araw araw ang magising ng wala ka sa aking tabi. Pero kasunod na ang mga plano nating magkakasama rin tayong muli. Yung wala ng hiwalayan. Pero ang proseso ay hindi madali. 😭 Kailangan pa rin nating magbanat ng buto at pasensya at pangunawa para iyon ay marating. Tiis tiis kahit araw araw mata na lang ang walang pawis, ngiti at ngiti pa rin kahit pilit na ngisi. 

Naiiyak na ako kasi ang hirap at ika’y malayo. Kapag may umaaway sakin wala akong mapagsumbungan, kahit masabi ko sayo sa chat yung boses ko naman eh hindi mo napapakinggan.  Ang hirap masanay na nandyan ka lagi tapos biglang pag lingon ko wala ka na pala uli. 😭 Kaya ang lagi kong tanong hanggang kailan tayong ganito? Habang tumatagal humihirap yata mahal ko? Ako lang ba ang nakakaramdam nito? Binabalewala ko dahil alam kong mas mahirap sayo to. Ngingiti ako dahil ang pagluha ko ang magpapahirap sayo. Kakayanin ko dahil lumalakas ka kapag malakas ako. 

Kaunting hirap pa mahal ko, madami pa tayong pagdadaanan kaya walang bibitaw; walang iwanan. 

Ang LDR Life namin 

Di ako makatulog. Ang sarap mag-emote. Haha! Wala lang, biruin mo yun mula pagsampa nya sa barko, sa 9months na on board, araw araw kaming magkausap. May internet man sya o wala. (Salamat sa swabe kong internet. The best!) Kahit pa anong busy ko, nakakatawag ako sa oras; kung di man ako makatawag sa oras ibig sabihin lang nun tulog ako. 🤣 Pag di ako nakakatawag on time nagoonline yun, tinatanong kung bakit wala pa akong call. 🤣 Kaya di maari ang absent kahit pa magka-away kami ay naguusap pa rin. Kaya lang kami makakatulog na magkaaway dahil sa sobrang pagod na sa trabaho. Pero kinabukasan pinaguusapan pa rin. Hanggang ayos na ayos at swabe na ulit. Ang wish ko lagi saamin eh magmahalan na parang hindi nagbababag. ☺️👌🏻😀
Timezone.

Sa dami na ng inaatupag ko minsan siguro iilang beses palang ako nalito sa pag-kwenta kung ilang oras ang higit ko sakanya. Ayaw ko pa naman ng Math pero atag na akong magbilang. Haha! Jusko di ko malimutan yung 5PM sakanya eh mag 12 na ng hating gabi sakin. As in natulog ako ng 8:30 tapos gigising ng mag aalas dose. 🤣

Palibhasa sa ganoon masaya na kami. Sobrang saya na namin kapag nagkakausap kami, nakakawala ng pagod sa trabaho, updated rin kami. Ang tyaga rin nga nya, literal na telepono ang gamit ako eh naka headset tapos telebabad ng 2 oras.
Bonding.

Sabay kumain minsan sa gabi, nanunuod sya ng balita eh nakikinig rin ako kahit di ko nakikita, habang nagiinom minsan eh pinapatawag pa ako parang nakiki jamming rin. Haha! 

Eh may internet na sya madalas ngayon, menos call, pero kapag break time laro laro naman kami ng Mobile Legends. 🤣 Lagi kaming magkasagpi. Haha! Gusto nya lagi kaming magkalaro. 😍 

Minsan nagiinom rin kami habang magkausap, tapos kwentuhang walang katapusan ng kanyang mga kalokohan mula pagkabata, mga buhay namin nung highschool, mga experiences sa buhay, mga natutunan, madami pang iba. ☺️
Ending.

Tapos ngayon malapit na kaming mag kita. Natyaga namin ang araw araw na ganuon. 

Unbelievable, pero ayus rin eh. Kudos sa pagtutulungan naming dalawa. As in weeks n lang yung binibilang. I’m proud of us. Really. Hindi naman to madali pero bakit keri namin. 🤣❤️ Oh di baa. Walang imposible kapag gusto, kapag patas ang effort, kapag totoong love love na ito. Saaming dalawa lang kami nagkukuhanan ng lakas ng loob. 

Kaya kung sakaling gusto ko syang protektahan at ilayo sa kahit anong tingin kong makakasira saamin, siguro naman hindi masama, malaki talaga ang effoerts namin para lang mabahidan ng manchang basta na lang darating. Kung may mancha, ay lagi naman akong may pang-bleach na daladala. 🤣
Sincerely,

Vhey 

Happiness: Hard to earn

We laugh and smile and we’re not happy. I guess that laughing and smiling are just really a response to a certain action. I say so because it is easy to smile even you’re lonely but it will never be the same if it really means to me. 

Have you ever been so sad and you cannot put in details why? Have you been thinking about a lot of things and yet it led you to a neutral emotion (some kind of numbness) and then you find yourself in the corner of your room thinking and thinking again about a lot of stuffs, asking what’s wrong, lacking and what’s really going on? Or even asking for solutions about a problem you don’t even know where from? What do you call that state of mentality? 

I do not usually go out with friends, 3/4 of my life is basically working and “me” time. Every day there are few poeple in my inbox, a little chit chat. There are people available to talk but it is me who doesn’t feel like talking to them. What’s going on with my self.

I must admit I am missing someone. Being in a long distance relationship is hard, my boyfriend is a seaman and I hope you can imagine how hard it is to wait for the time, to adjust to time, to manage the time, skip sleeping because time is precious and you are not going to talk to him or see him everyday. 

Happiness is sacrifice. I can go out with friends but my friends are also busy working, and during my weekend days off, I want to relax in my room from Monday-Friday grind and sleeping 6 hours or less every night. I do not have so much time for myself and sometimes when homesickness strikes, it strikes hard. PLUS this effin hormones and PMS. Oh how I wish I could be with the person I love. You know, with just one hug all tiredness can be erased. And if you ask about my family, I am living with my mom and my father and 2 more sisters are in my own country. My Mom, I think feels the same way I do. But we must fight for this emotions and keep going on. Smile even if it is not that happy, fight on and live on because it is all part of sacrifice. 

Happiness is hard to earn. I sometimes do not know what happiness means. Contentment maybe? I am content with my life but I want to laugh the real laugh, smile the real smile, and go crazy over things and have fun. 

In short, I need a vacation. Miles awat from my work, recollect my broken pieces and get back my mindset. I need a time for me, for my boyfriend and I know with that, I’m going to be really HAPPY. 

Why do we hurt the ones we love?

To the person we love the most, to the person who made our life complete, to the person who made our shattered pieces in to brand new, we owe them big. We owe them so much. 

He is the reason of my everyday smile and my happiness in general. He is the reason why I choose to dream again and choose to love the love I never given to anyone else. He is the moon in my dark lonely night at the same time, the star that shines all day so bright. 

He is the one that made me live. The reason why I want to wake up even in my laziest morning. He is the time that I always look on to, the reason for everything I wish to do. 

But sometimes I can hurt him whenever I am sad. He is not OK seeing my eyes hurts so bad. When my tears started to fall he ran out of calmness; and panic starts to cover his face that’s before was only gladness. 

I wish I can be happy all the time. But being a girl is not as easy as cutting a lime. I hate that sometimes I need to burst but I need to say somehow my unspoken words. 

Sisige o Susuko?

Kumusta ka naman? Hehe. Aba ako eh eto. Trying to feel neutral sa lahat lahat ng happenings sa buhay ko. Bueno. Isa lang ang ipinagpapasalamat ko-wala akong problema. 

Bakit nga kaya tayong mga tao kahit kung susumahin, wala naman talagang problema eh bakit malalim tayong mag-isip? Ako kasi ayaw kong magkamali. Kaya lagi kong pinagkakaisipang mabuti ang mga bagay bago ko gawain. Kahit pa alam ko sa sarili ko na pwedeng makapagpasaya yun saakin.

Masaya ako. Andaming magandang nangyayari ang hindi ko lang alam ay kung bakit di ko maramdaman yung saya. Bakit more on kaba ang nararamdaman ko o di kaya naman ay mga takot. Natatakot ako sa sarili ko. Natatakot ako na makasakit or whatever. I dunno why I am feeling this. Siguro dahil mixed emotions lang talaga. As in andami kong feelings eh. 

1st, Uuwi ako sa Pinas and I am going to have 2months mahigit na vacation, I am excited at the same time I am afraid na maubusan ng pera doon. Haha! 

2nd, ikakasal na ako! Sa January 29 eh mamanhikan na sila saamin. I am sooo happy and at the same time di ako makapaniwala na kami rin pala ang magkakatuluyan. Na totoo ang lahat ng nangyayareng ito. Na finally, there is someone na may ginagawa to prove his love to me. Nakakakaba in a way na ikakasal na kami and maybe I am preparing myself to future difficulties. Muka na akong tanga sa part na yan. Lagi ko naaalala yung sinasabi ni Ma’am Tet (Prof ko nung college na maganda at matalino. Idol ko in fact) na “Ang unfair naman yata kung pagiisipan mo sya ng bagay na hindi pa nya ginagawa.” So mula nung sinabi nya yon, parang na-shake ang aking jutakels at napaisip ng “Oo nga. Very wrong ako sa part na yon. Pinahihirapan ko lang rin ang sarili ko.” 

Moving on. 

3rd, budget. Andaming dapat ayusin. Ayoko gumastos ng malaki..i want to save something more sa mga darating na araw. Nakaka stress pag tinitiis ang sarili ha. Nakakainit ng ulo at nakakaikli ng temper. Haha. Redundant na. Pero totoo yun. Ang hirap ng nagtitiis. Pero malalampasan din ito. Part ito ng pagtitiis at worth it ito. 

Yan ang title nyan kasii kahit medyo weird ang feelings ko ngayon eh sisige pa rin ako. Lagi ko kasi yang sinasabi sa twing nahihirapan ako. Sisige o susuko. Tapos aalamin ko ang mga dahilan ng pag-sige at ng pag-suko. In the end I wi follow my heart..😂 May mga bagay kasi na kahit gusto mo hindi mo makukuha at kahit nandyan na mas pipiliin mo pa ring talikuran. 

I don’t have problems. I must be happy. Ang sunod kong blog ay papamatagan kong

“Sisihin ang hormones.” 😂😂

There’s more to life.

​”You go to places and you see the world, you make memories that you can bring until you grow old.” – #ldrandlifeblog
I have to repost this photo. I always long to see mornings like this. This makes me feel like I want to live more. This feels life. 

Kung hindi dahil sa boyfriend ko, hindi na ako mangangarap uli.

I realized that andami pang magaganda sa buhay than what we have right now. Ako nga eh, never in my life na naisip ko na makakakita ako ng ganito kagandang view. Never in my life na inakala kong posible palang mangyare lahat ng magagandang ito sa buhay ko.

Kagaya sa love life, friends. 

Nasayo lang yun if you want to see it also. If you are willing to grow or just stay there not moving on. 

Instead of doing bad things to feed your ego, why not do good things to improve yourself? I’ve seen people that are injured, badly hurt, emotionally broken. I’ve been there too. Somewhere in my life  I belong to that group of people. 

I saw them and saw what they are doing, i saw my self and I start comparing and I told my self,

“No, I do not want to be like that. I am hurt but I do not like to be bad nor kawawa.” 

Pag nasasaktan ako, I want to improve, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Kaya instead na manakit din ako ng iba? Hindi na lang. Hindi naman sila masasaktan eh. Bakit ko naman ilalagay ang sarili ko sa tabi ng bangin, tas pag nagtatalon ako don eh ako din naman ang may 100% chance na mahulog at mashigok. Hehe. 
I am not judging them people. They have their own life style, they have their own defense mechanism kung paano sila makakawala sa “sakit.” And I have my own way too. 

Hindi ko sinasabi na wag nilang indahin ang sakit na nararamdaman nila. It hurts a lot seeing the one you love walking away from you. Been there. I will go crazy if that happens to me. But one thing is for sure of that happens, I will cry today but I will be successful tomorrow. 
P.S.

When I write, I am talking to myself.

FALL 🍁

​”FALL”
I can still remember how it all started;

I was then broken and my pieces are scattered;

I was then free but feels like I am bottled;

And in just one moment my heart just rattled.
Your adventures makes me want to know you more;

Since our minds were both open like an open door;

Our talks get deeper as we walk the shore;

Then We felt like addicted to each other’s humor.
One day you said you love me seriously;

I cannot believe that I felt the same in all honesty;

But I just have to be very careful firstly;

Because I do not want to hurt you badly.
So I fixed my self and relaxed a bit;

Realized everything before I commit;

Been through a lot until I met my limit;

Cannot wait for more, I want to see you in the summit.
I prayed for you and you prayed for me;

Now we have each other unexpectedly;

Remember it’s Fall when we crossed that valley;

And we go together with this God’s given glory.

Autumn + s7 edge Pro Camera settings + VSCO 

Benefits of Long Distance Relationship (LDR)

We are all aware that many relationships are also in long distance. Most are left in  the Philippines, and your partner will go working abroad. Saying this as a Filipina who is also in a LDR situation. I have friends too that after how many years being with their loved ones in one country ended up LDR. Which in our part is super hard. But we will not focus on that parts ‘coz I have a list of benefits of this situation. Believe me, being in a LDR is not as complicated as everyone thought. It is just a matter of acceptance and maturity. If you cannot handle everything, better you stop fooling yourselves in the first place. Too, I am not saying that LDR is only for strong people, I always believe we are all strong in our own ways. Self control and positivity is the key. Not just love and trust and loyalty. 

Here are some benefits of LDR in my opinion and own experience:

1. You are going to have more time for your self.

Yes. That is a fact. After how many years being accompanied by your loved ones, you are finally going to see the wider world you only thought is as small as your hand. You will realize you can do more and better, it is like being single but you are in a relationship. BUT, nevee ever take this for granted as you know you have your other half in the other side of the world. You will not realize this at first bec.you are covered with loneliness and self pity. You will always miss the one you love, but trust me, helping your self first will set your relationshio worry free. 

2. You will realize who really matters most.

You’ll meet different kinds of people wherever you will go. You will be a little curious about your surroundings and will get involved with different groups of friends, but later on you will go home alone and realize one thing; they don’t really matter. You and your loved ones are more important. You are just lonely to hang out, you are longing for hugs from the people you loved the most. Just do not get off with this mindset and you are not going to be in a situation where you can think of cheating. Do not cheat, there is no better hand and lips than the love of your life. Always remember that. 

3. You will have more time to think.

If you are always together with your loved ones, you have few times about thinking. You might have multiple exchange of convos but you have few times to really think about what’s really going on. If you are in LDR your free times are always spent on thinking and realizing stuffs and everything is self improvement. Which is also better. 

4. You will always be missed and everything always feels new.

Yep. He or she will always miss you and there is no better feeling knowing that one person is thinking about you from the time he wakes up. You are going to feel special everyday specially when you both do efforts to make each other happy. 

5. You will love each other more.

Distance makes you know how you can manage everything good and bad and how to handle things carefully. You always long for each other then it means the love will always be burning. Just have proper time management of communications and then you are set. Just believe that nothing is permanent except change, your situation will always get better, and so your feelings will change from less to more. 

“Problems are always present. But never exaggerate. Never put yourself down for you do not own all the problems of the world.” -Jhevey Razon

Pray, Forgive and Forget

Kapag mahal mo pala talaga ang isang tao, hindi mahalaga kung ano ang mga masasamang napagdaanan nyo, at ang maiisip mo kagad eh kung paano kayo mas magiging matatag. 

Weh? Baka sabi mo lang yan? Baka sa umpisa lang naman yan?

Hindi rin. Hehe. Sa umpisa kahit anong nagawa nyang mali, masakit. At maiisip mo na habang tumatagal, masakit pa rin. Pero alam mo na masasaktan sya pag nasasaktan ka kaya babalewalain mo na lang kasi in the first place nakapag sorry na sya at ilang beses mo na syang napatawad. In the long run, sarili mo na lang ang kalaban mo. Kaya you have to control what you think and your emotions too. Keep yourself busy, do productive stuffs. Yup. Productive. Kesa mag self pity ka sa bahay buong buhay mo, okay lang mag self pity paminsan minsan, ang sarap rin kayang umiyak. Pero wag mo uugaliin ha. Pray ka rin para mas maging matatag ang loob mo. Tulad ng sinabi ko, sarili mo na lang ang kalaban mo. Makakatulong rin na paminsan minsan sabihin mo sa jowa mo ang nararamdaman mo. Dahil sya rin ang makakatulong sayo. Wag mo syang aawayin dahil sa mga nagawa nyang pinagsisisihan nya na rin hanggang ngayon. Tao lang sya at tao ka lang rin. 

MAIKLI lang ang buhay para sa bad vibes. Ang iwan natin sa bawat tao ay ang mga nagawa nating maganda kahit pa anong sama ng ating pinagdaanan.

God bless.