Dear Future Self,

Hiii. Ikaw na ga yan? Ang galing mo naman! Sabi ko na kaya mo yan eh. ❤️😘

 Natutuwa naman ako na narating mo kung anuman ang meron ka ngayon. Natutuwa naman akong malaman na sa lahat ng mga tiis mo at luha at pagod sa trabaho at sa lahat ng pinagdaanan mo sa buhay eh successful ka na in all aspects. Galing mo sa part na yan. ☺️ Hindi talaga ako nagkamali, at kahit kelan di ako nagduda sa kakayahan mo. 😁 

Akalain mong nalampasan mo ang lahat ng yuuun? Aba Ateng, bibihira ang nakakarating sa ganang point ha. Para lang yang pag akyat ng bundok, nakakapago habang nasa kalagitnaan ka. Pero ang sarap ng feeling kapag nasa tuktok ka na. Kaya nga lang sa buhay, di natin pwedeng ihilera sa bundok. Kasi after mo dun di ka naman pwedeng mag stay sa taas forever, kaylangan mo rin bumaba at umuwi ng bahay. 😂 Pero even though it is not literally like that, kapag nasa peak ka na ng happiness mo kagaya ngayon, wag ka na bababa ha. Kung wala ng iaangat pa ang kasiyahan mong yan, maging masaya ka na muna sa meron ka ngayon. Pangalagaan mo yang happiness mo, at tandaan mong wag kang bababa. Wag mong isusuko ang lahat ng meron ka. Maging sa tuktok kasi ng bundok hindi mawawala ang bagyo, mas malapit sa taas mas malakas ang damage na idudulot sayo, pero consider that as a blessing. Bagyo, ulan, magpasalamat kang nababasa ka kaysa habang panahon kang tuyot at walang pagkuhanan ng mga bagay na pang bless mo sa iba. When it rains, it pours, sahod lang Bes dalawang kamay. Punuin mo ang balde mo ng ulan at bagyo, at ibuhos mo yan sa mga halamang natutuyo na ang ugat sa lupa. 

Ang swerte mo naman. Sobra. Sa nakikita ko ngayon ang saya saya mo talaga. Higit pa sa kasiyahan na naranasan mo dati. Share mo naman ang secret mo sa iba. Or better to say, share mo naman yung happiness mo sa iba.  Nung nakaraan ang lungkot mo eh, ilang beses ka na ba nakaranas ng ganun pero nakatayo ka pa rin! Ibang klase. ❤️🌸

Para ka palang spring time sa Madrid. Di ba ang ganda? 🌸❤️ May picture ka pa ng cherry blossom di ba? My God ang ganda ng cellphone mo nun yayamanin. Haha! Ano na ba yang gamit mo ngayon? 😁 Ikaw talaga lagi mong deserve ang mga best things ng buhay. How lucky you are really! Parang kelan lang di mo mahawakan ang mga gusto mo pero ngayon abot kamay mo ng lahat. 

Andaming blessings sayo ni God.  I-look back mo nga, di ka nauubusan ng mga taong nakakaunawa sayo kahit na minsan feeling mo mag-isa ka. Sila talaga yung totoo mong yaman eh. ☺️ Lalo na yung boyfriend mo at Mama mo na nararamdaman ka kahit di ka magsalita. Sila ang yaman mo. Sila ang makakapitan mo someday. ❤️ 

Unti unti mong na-reach lahat. Slowly, tinanggap mo ang mga bagay na hindi katanggap-tanggap at akala mong hindi mangyayari sa reality, pero you are so strong to always face the reality! Yung iba tumanda na at lahat eh niloloko pa rin ang sarili, pinaniniwala sa mga bagay bagay na hindi naman talaga totoo. Di ba nga lage mong katwiran, being true to yourself is being true to others.  👌🏻 Galing mo dun.  

Yung mga pangarap mo, Wow naman. Abot kamay. Dati hanggang planner lang pero ngayon andami ng improvments. How to be you po? 😁😍☺️

Sige na, ang haba na masyado ng letter ko. Alagaan mong mabuti ang sarili mo para sa asawa mo at sa pamilya mo. Kung minsan wala kang makakapitan pero tandaan mo, kung wala ka, hindi sila masaya, hindi sila matapang at wala silang lakas ng loob. 

God bless you SOBRA. More blessings and the best is always yet to come. Para sa’yo ang trophy ng kaligayahan dahil sa kabutihan mong walang hanggan. ❤️
Love,

Yourself.

Adjusted

I am a Filipina and I moved to Spain last September 21, 2014. I was then a 21 year old girl who knows nothing but taking risks and only focused on my goals- To have a Photography Studio. Earning in Philippines (for me) is not that easy, I tried working as a Car Sales Agent and I can say selling cars were never that easy as I am not working inside the showroom. There is a huge difference, I need to go to different places and giving brochures and leaflets and introduce the the product but anyway, that was quite challenging though; I can meet different extraordinary people who can afford buying cars. 

Moving on, my first months in Spain was tragic. I cannot believe myself in pure loneliness and homesick. I am just fighting that emotion and still pushing on achieving my goals and the main reason why I am here. While doing that, I forgot about myself. I forgot looking at the mirror and see a beautiful reflection. I was sooo blooming wayback in Philippines and I always look good but when I got here, I can’t believe how haggard I was. 😂 My mindset is: “I am not here to enjoy, I am here to work.” But having that mindset never gave me a chance to save a lot of money. 😂 Ironic. Hate the fact that the cost of living is expensive. And whenever I have money, I dunno why I end up helping people or relatives in Philippines who have less. I am now helping a neice in her studies paying her tuition fees and school needs and etc. 

After 2 years I started buying clothes shoes and personal stuffs. I feel good about myself whenever I am helping someone but then I forgot my own self. I cannot balance everything. One person helped me realize that it is not bad if I think about myself too with the fact that I am the one who is working. That I need to give myself a reward, and treat myself better. I get over my homesickness because of him. He served as my inspiration and you know what? I am going to marry him soon this year 2017. 

I owe him a lot. Before, All I know is taking risk and whenever I mess up in the middle I lose myself out of nowhere and later on don’t exactly know what to do. He is my Idol and I am going to be his No.1 Fan for life. 

I am still composing myself and everyday I love who I am because of Him. How can you leave a person who helped you in your most difficult situation. He maybe don’t do anything like staying beside me literally, we are in a Long Distance Relationship but he never leaves my side emotionally. That’s when I realized that Love does not only mean hugging and kissing, it also means feeding each other emotional needs and helping each other become the best version of own self. 

I am happy, I am now more than blessed than before that I am living in Madrid. I appreciate what I have though it is still hard to earn money, BUT I never had zero resources. God always provides. Amen. I just hope I always have a lot of love to give, an endless one. I thank God for everything. I adjusted. I have an inspiration. Glory to Him! 

When you’re tired, rest. 

Here at 100 Montaditos, Narvaez. It is my favorite place the food is cheaper than any other bars & restaurant you could ever encounter in Spain. There are burgers that costs €1,20 only. And beers in large beer mugs costs €1,50 and then you’re okay. 😁

I have been reading different blogs too about self improvement, how to be rich, how to save money, how to reach your goals. And it helps me a lot whenever I am in the state of overthinking. I know it sucks to overthink. But  when you are usually alone or when you feel down you can’t help it. Help your self or ask for someone’s help if you cannot fight it alone.  There’s a lot of solutions. 

I am tired about everything in my life.  I just cannot enumerate this or maybe I don’t have enough courage to share it for it is too personal but I am still lucky to have this life and God is giving me many reasons why I need to fight the challenge. 

When you feel like you’re tired, you can rest. Don’t quit, just rest. You only need to pause and gain back the energy so tomorrow you can fighy again once more. Be thankful that there’s a lot of people who can understand you despite on how you react on simple things. Your boss who always understands you even when you feel down and can’t go to work on time, you’re lucky. I’m lucky. Your boyfriend who catches every tears that’s falling from your eyes. I cannot imagine how one people like my boyfriend is happy whenever he sees me smiling or laughing and yet so bothered whenever he hear my voice soft and lonely. I can never thank him enough for being there for me. I’ve been so sad for a long time and I deserve to be happy too. That is what I always feel. But who else in this world is not lonely? Everybody does have a reason to be but some chooses not to. 

I saw myself super down and not loving myself enough. I do not want to be that girl anymore. I promise. When I feel tired, I rest, I exhale and get my self a mug of beer and go home like  I am not tired of everything.